No sleep + Lots of Sugar= High as a Kite

Yo.. exam tomorrow, fluid mechanics. So screwed.. and yet not caring... after so many consecutive hours of studying and still not understanding there's no more I can do... I bid my GPA adieu and my sanity as well!!! LALALALA.. hehe, anyhoo I came to say.. officially I am Twenty Today.. yes.. that's right boys and girls and in honour of my birthday I will sing you a little song...

There once was a girl
she opened the world
and stared at it like it was new

she found it was filled
with a vibrance that thrilled
and brought her to find she was through..

i am through with the maddness
and through with the death
how selfish our nature
and lack of respect
i'm through with humanity
it's attributes few,
overwhelmingly so
i am through.

I wanna be sedated!!

Yo... this is the dizzle kay folks:
Today was the first day ever for me to wake up early to finish work, it didn't go over that well but it's an interesting method of doing things for those of you that don't normally do it either. It makes use of the morning, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Also, there's a midterm tomorrow which I am actually looking FORWARD to, cause I am READY and I can TAKE IT DOWNTOWWWN!!!! YEEEEEEEE HAW! Plus, now.. this is the scary thing... there's only Three Days Grace left till I am no longer a rebellious teenager and thus would have to pull up my socks and actually get down to some serious work... marf. Interestingly enough, it's not bothering me that much, but I really do feel older. But, the key factor is... I had a most mysterious dream and would love to share it with you all... it felt so realistic...

dream sequence beginning
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Picture the sky a shade of grey as an ominous feeling looms over you. Knots tightened in my stomach as I looked over to the little girl, for something was amiss. Someone... or something.. was comming for her, and I could feel it in my very core. Suddenly, an old woman enters the house, her aura is warm and I feel that I can trust her. She speaks simply:
Go to the third room, and block the door. I pick up the little girl and briskly walk to mothers room which I instinctively consider to be third in the house. Out of the corner of my eye I detect a movement from the window, and pulling back the curtains I see a Van pull into the driveway. It is the van of the preditor who craves the soul of my girl, the darkness inside him is overwhelming to the senses. It's obvously consumed him... for as he walks I can see that he is nothing but a cloud of dark, swirling smoke. He moves quickly and I see him approaching the house. I block the door with my body and hold the handle tight. Moments pass... and when I look down, the smoke that was once ouside is now blocking the light from behind the door. I grip it forcefully, and hope for any strength that lies within me to hold the door shut. He begins to fight me, his methods are subversive. He draws the warmth from me through the metal doorknob and I begin to feel my hand freeze. Then he slams his body against the door.. once.... twice... already the door is starting to splinter. 'The third time will bring it down..' the old lady speaks up once again, she warns me: 'We cannot hold him back any longer, step away..' But I do not listen, for I see the little girl in my mind and would give my existance, and suffer insurmountable pain to let her live for precious more minutes. I brace myself for one final impact, and look down to see a pattern of light outlining the little girl on the floor... she's comming towards me. I want to push her out of the way but to do so would remove me from my post, and so, I beg of her... 'move your shadow'... which even I think is an odd choice of words, but it was the part of her that seemed to appraoch the door. As the last word fell from my lips, the ghostly figure on the other side of the door dissipated in smoke. And for the last time, the old woman turns to me.. and decrees that... 'You have spoken its true name, which is the only weakness of the preditor'

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Yes, quite an odd dream, one I remembered quite purely. The weird part is not just the context but that I drempt it several times, with several variations. And I recall feeling deja vu IN THE DREAM. Which is pretty crazy. So yes.. I meant to tell you all that, and now, I bid you a most enjoyable evening!!

Sweet Dreams Everyone....

Sheala

Scraping my Dignity off the Floor

Well folks, one helluva Nuclear Physics exam... it was so bad, all I could do was laugh. A very hubling experience. The good news is: there's three more mid term exams left, and thus there's hope for redeeming my feeble GPA. The Bad news is: this means most of the nuclear engineers are failing nuclear physics. hehe.. ahh the irony. Anyhoo..

Quote of the Day:

'Patience may be a Virtue but Time is a Luxury!'

Have you ever felt so cut off from the outside world.. this is how i feel today when I actually hang out with normal people who arn't attending university. All I know is my little bubble of friends, and the schoolwork we do, never watch the news, never watch tv, might read a book once and a while. Internet is my only window into the world, and it's so messed up... hehe.
I feel like it may be making me a much colder person than I was before, or maybe I always was, got no idea. Marf. Heh.. maybe it's perfect for me. Anyhoo, where's the cheer eh?! Well thank you John Mayer for painting color into my soul... these empty days are hard to take. Think I'll pick up my old Buddhism book...and get to reading.

nite everyone!

This post has been brought to you by the letters D and E

The word of the day is MARF.... and the catchphrase of the month is weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
MARF in a sentence:

Bob: How's it going John?
John: MARF.

Jeff: Whats for homework?
Brenda: MARF.

so basically.. it can be used anywhere... it's a universal word, noun, verb or however you want to use it.. even a pronoun!
tell good ole' peter that one!! two shots of tequila please!!

and weeeeeeeeeeeee... well see the number of e's (#e) is directly proportional to the amount of happiness you want to express (H)... therefore |H| = k#e, where k is the Shealan proportionality constant of 4.76 * 10^17 smiles/e. Use it well.

By the way.. Differential Equations... = hell when you gotta do most of the questions... AHHH!!!

lotsa love

Sheala

The Spectacular People who attended the engineering bash... don't they look like they're having fun?? You should come out next time!! 

Vomit in Rage!!!!

ed. note: This post goes out to my buddy Jesus!

Well my friends.. sad to say Turkey weekend is over, and now comes a time where socks are to be pulled up, Fluid Mechanics labs are to be finished.. and once again.. sleep is to be lost! However, there's some good news. Very good news. And THAT is that we only have to do this for another two months till we get a MEGA HUGE BREAK.. well a couple weeks off that is.

I think my brain is SERIOUSLY messed up, the other night I had the oddest dream....

Five university friends and i were abducted by an unusual nursing woman... now this woman was doing messed up research in her laboratory. we were all in her laboratory on a large steel table in straight jackets and our legs were tied down on the table in such a way that we were all connected and she was setting up a machine that was going to run some SERIOUS voltage through our poor fragile bodies.
She was telling us her horrible plot and that afterwords she planned on burying our bodies in the ground in such a way as our bodies (which are in a 'standing up' position) are perpendicular to the ground with everything below our waists beneath the dirt.. and everything above, above. All the while I'm thinking to myself 'what the hell!?!'. But all of a sudden I realize my hand is lose enough to remove from the straight jacket and I formulate a dashing plan to save everyone from this unusual nurse woman. So I motion to Angela beside me that my hand was free, and for her to be quiet about it since the nurse was nearby. Then we waited till nurse lady was far enough away and i took my free hand and unbuckled the leg restraint. However, she notices this and comes running at us in a frantic RAGEEEE!!! So, with what limited movement we had we fought her off with some powerful kicks to the body and head, then busted out of there as fast as six tied up university students could.

She blocked our way to the door.

SHATS!!!

We deaked left, dodged right and faked her outta there. We went running through the halls and realized we're in a high school. All of a sudden it's just me alone. I'm talking to someone who I can't remember and they are discribing this nurses research and how she won some kind of prize for it. So all along, her bizarro research had merit, at least to some imaginary dream sequence person who was in a high school. Whaddaya know.

Well, that's all I got for today, good luck my darlings... with everything thats out there to push you down, we gotta stick together like molecules of water and make some SURFACE TENSION to push it right back!! YEAH BABY!!!!!

Turkey Tastin' Time... the old.. T cubed!

Whewww my peeps, that was one HELLUVA week. Between the engineering events, and insane assignments.. coupled with exams, peppered with extreme procrastonation and lots of fun hanging out with the people I love. Ahh the in class and out of class euchre games!! Tee hee!

Well honestly, this is a lifestyle that is not possible to maintain if I intend to ever get sleep. :D so.. at some point work has to get done THIS weekend. not next weekend, not next week.. not tomorrow.. THIS WEEKEND.. lol... and that work must.. MUST MUST consist of fluid mechanics cause if I don't do it now.. never will.

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like my only friend...
is the City I live in, the city of Angels..
lonely as I am, together we cry.

- Red Hot Chili Peppers~!!!

Yes it's irrelevant, but it's my party and I'll sing if I wanna. Thank goodness for the wonderful people, who are who they are and are wonderful because of it. They make me feel more grounded just being around em, even if I don't know whats going on, at least someone does.
A glimmer of truth in this world ignites a light illuminating the path to the future.
Little too wordy to be said by the geniuses of the world.. but i'm working on my AshQuotes.

May the turkey be moist,
the family functional,
and the gravy any recognisable color.
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEE
Peace be with you.

Spectacular, Spectacular!

An evening review...

The DDR enriched evening was spun with such grace, such glamour, such toned down elegance that I can't believe many of our fellow engineers missed it. There was laughter, singing and maybe not as many nurses as I had hoped, but nonetheless it was filled with cheer! There we're glow pens, and pool games, and bottle rockets that didn't want to fly. We had friends, and pizza and little bags of chips, with some of the best Engineering Song lyrics. It was so good, I had to compose a sonnet!

Why...

Victoria was at the pool table,
hustling Tyler was her game!
Steve was the master of strip tease,
while Cory made bottles inflate.

We should have done some homework
or studied for exams
but hell man we are engineers
so we made other plans

Eva chilled at the table,
pondering her Bio Chem
Sam tried to find recruits
cause he's the solar man

basking in the light
refracted from the pens
while Witty's baby floats
the pimpin stick suspends

boisterous voices resound
and as the arrows fly, we chase
Theo is the champion
but Bernice can move her waist~!

Yeeee HAw!! good ole times, I'll have to give the night an over all 4 stars... from where i come from that's an 80% goodness rating! Flip cha on the shappy tain.

Back to my Future.. or working on it at least.

Yes, another day another dollar... and here I am in class pondering the meanings of stress and strain. I can't help but wonder if this is where I'm meant to be.. and really I also wonder what is free time? Hehe.. seriously, I am considering joining this band, there's a posting in the university and they need a lead singer and lyricist but the whole time factor kills me. It'd be so wicked though if they'd consider having me in their band. I will write a song in honor of contemplating joining a band...

one day,
i'll be singing on the stage
filling my songs with rage
scribbling on the pages
all the words
and they will sound absurd
to everyone
and we'll jump around un..
til
we need to take a break
my hands will start to shake
tearing away the skin
till you see the heart within
it pulpitates
gonna need some defriblation
what unsettling sensation
but I....I..I.. I'm alive!

lol.. so messed up, such is mango. speaking of mango, eva has the most wicked mango juice,
I highly recommend everyone try it, and buy it.. annnd time for philosophy!!!

Today is alright for Tonight!

For all the UOIT muffin lovers.. since i have nothing better to do on a Saturday night:

We are we are we are we are we are the Waller muffins
We’re fresh you see, as we can be, we’re straight out of the oven
and you may think we’re crazy but we’re happy as can be
in nuclear engineering at our new university!

We come in many flavors like Colton, McLeod and Sunny
And we all know the joke about how Witty is so funny…!
So we try to problem solve, but it just isn’t as fun,
as singing a remade version of the engineering song!

While there’s students in facilities as old as they are young
We’re working in our high tech school and getting the job done
its hell when servers go down and we’re shut out from webct
since we can’t submit our assignments, we go on a drinking spree!

*Sigh* arn't weekends great!
ps. I survived driving with Vio again!! Though I screw up sometimes, and he freaks out.. its fun driving with him!! Wooooo.. high on left turns!