Monday, January 30, 2006

Poems from a bus 3

Ah, I love the early morning bus rides, if only my brain would SHUT OFF once and a while so that I could stop thinking and enjoy it. Instead, I present you with yet another of my poems. This one is just a reflection, of what you can probably guess... enjoy!

Incarceration

The shroud of night
Enveloping
the daggers of light
lingering
only for a moment
‘till they drive onward
in the darkness


what is it I’m waiting for
mindlessly seeking
who is it that I’ll adore
who’ll leave my heart to weeping

lingering around your door
lost and looking for protection
warm and inviting,
parts the dark sea
with inner light, affection


these thoughts, a line
and one by one
they come with their complaints
telling me, its not begun
and I’m not the type to wait


my heart, subdued
in frozen incarceration
barely beating,
the soft rhythm of distant drums
can you hear it?


Ah! To break this timing
To hear it once again
Be wild and unkempt
In joyous spasm!

How to melt these layers
Quietly accumulating
Of self protection
Of isolation

To dance through the carnage
of warm and luscious water
finally free from its prison
as my heart floats, with childish glee

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Power

Standing tall
despite the fall
you wait for me to take

you push me near
edges of fear
but I will never break

I can shiver
I can cry
You can stoop
low as you lie
I'll leave this place
with head held high
without the slightest
slow decline

the weight on me
is amplified
pulling simply to the floor
quietly resolved
in the night
not to take any more

you will smile
like the wolf
sleeping in your mind

when I tried
to be helpful,
attempted to be kind

no, I won't smile back
not this time
not today

I will take back my dignity
you have out on display

but one thing
that I'll leave
is my own disbelief
that someone like you
could act so childishly

Monday, January 02, 2006

Depression

Wow, sometimes when people keep letting you down it can be a real blow to your ego. People you care about, trust and count on.. and then they hurt you consistantly and keep falling though even when you keep giving them chances. Sigh. That's what this poem is about anyway. Peace and Love to all of you.

Depression


My skin is worn

Salty rivers form

Uncontrollable once released

Reflection on self

Stuck me back on the shelf

Numbness envelops me

Weeping for you

All the pain that you spread

Leaving hope slowly mangled

And withered in your stead

you don’t see all you cause

as you float quickly past

break me swift on a whim

shattered pieces of glass

in my eyes there is love

but you avert my gaze

my hands outstretched to you

though you force me away

standing still in the storm

that’s awakened in me

shaking down to the core

when will I find some peace?