Thursday, November 25, 2004

Fire alarms and basic human nature...

well... once again someone set off a fire alarm in residence, not at any old time either, had to be two in the morning. Tee heee.... lucky me, I'd been sleeping since 7pm. Okay now to get down to it... kind of weird time to be talking about this but out of all the horror films, and I've seen the ring, I've ever seen, the 'zombie' films always scare me the most. ALWAYS. Why? What is it about them that tend to linger in your mind? What part of these movies digs little holes of doubt in my perception of mankind....? Well... since you're just DYING to know... (pardon the pun) I'll tell you!
In zombie movies, its a transformation of the human into some kind of monster, usually there's some humans left cause well, there would be no one to root for if there weren't some kind of hero killing them off for self preservation. These monsters live on the very basic levels, all they want is to feed... and what do they eat? Brains!! AHHH!! So they'll kill anyone to get to said brains and commit any kind of violent act. So zombies live based on one simple urge, and really, there's a kind of purity in that. Say if a zombie came over to your house, and sat on your couch and your son wanted to sit beside him, you wouldn't let him. Why? Cause you DONT TRUST THE ZOMBIE, especially a hungry zombie wanting some dinner. You know his inner desires, because they're easy to interpret.
Then when you look deep, deep down at the very basic levels of human nature, when you break down all the rules society has imposed upon us, for example in a state of emergency, and even religious rules (although I can't think of a reason why people would abandon them) everything would become chaotic. People would start acting like animals and bow to their basic necessities very quickly. We need to eat, we need to sleep to maintain some level of sanity, we have that wonderful desire for self preservation, and of course there's that ever-lovin' urge to procreate lingering in there somewhere (although I wouldn't call this a necessity as I've seen many a person live without it).
To me, wearing clothes, getting jobs, acting respectable, being productive... all in the name of the advancement of humanity is really just a lie. We're trying to be better than what we actually are. Than the primitive urges that lie deep down inside of us. Think, for example, if someone came to your door that you didn't know and asked to use your phone. I would think several things (maybe just cause I'm a paranoid person)
1. Do they REALLY want to use the phone or is there a hidden intention here?
2. Is there anyone else in the house to back me up if there is a hidden intention?
3. Are they capable of kicking my ass?
4. What IS they're hidden intention?
Etc Etc Etc...
Number four is what I would like to expand on. Because, I am honestly getting a little sick of hidden intentions. And yet, everyone usually will have an agenda, which is FAR less predictable than the zombie. It could be that the guy who wants to use the phone wants to rob me to get money to buy food (although if that we're the case, I'd gladly give him some food), he could be lookin' for love in all the wrong places, maybe he wants to call his girlfriend long distance, or his car could actually have broken down and he DIDN'T HAVE A CELL PHONE.. oh dear god no! no cell phone.. *tear* gawd I hate cell phones. Anyway, you see how there's a kind of limitless array of different intentions here. I may have meandered on my argument here, but I’ll break down what I’m trying to say:

  1. Zombies have basic needs which are obvious to everyone and they will use any means to get them.
  2. Humans have basic needs which we seem to think we’re better than, or we’d prefer to ignore while in ‘civilized society’.
  3. In a situation where the rules of society break down we finally bow to these basic desires, for instance someone may stab someone else for clean drinking water if in a situation where there is a limited supply.
  4. In that situation, we would become much like the zombies.
  5. What’s scarier… the zombies bowing to their most basic of interests so obviously predictable, or your fellow man whom you past every day, whom we happily inhabit the earth with, your fellow man who would turn on you in the right situation.
Well.. I bid you all goodnight and profound thoughts.

Sheala..

*The Zombie*

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Long nights... longer days

YeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeHAW!!! I just got like two hours sleep, and am so incredibly thankful for that nap. Cause I would be one cranky Kally... one Lazy Daisy.. one Snoozin Susan... and now I'm AWAAAKE and.. should .. probably.. go ... about.. finishing my three assignments... and... cleaning my.. overwhelmingly . . . . messy... room. *sigh*.. BAck to BED!!! well wait I'm in it right now. Anyhoo, hows everyone?!? I would just like to say that...

Mist

If you ever want a slice of me
don't hesitate to ask for seconds,
don't hesitate to ask for thirds

I may be a delicasy,
but I don't mind sharing
no I don't mind sharing

you ever want a piece of my love
when i finally, when i finally feel it
well, I don't mind sharing
I don't mind sharing
I don't mind.. sharing.

you ever need another cup of tea
you know I'll make it for you
you know I'll make it for you

I don't know if I'm easily distracted
if I'm easily dejected
if I'm easy, if I'm easy...

I wanted to sing you a song
to say I thank you for it
but I couldn't write the words

and on the night of secrets,
whispered in the darkness,
by the light of the candles....
and I could say it was misty then
a lot like the mist... the mist, inside me.

and I know I hurt you
and I know I'm wrong
I know I hurt you
so I sing you..
I cry when I sing you this song.

Written a while ago
though not too long... I have a recording of it that I made first try around and it's kind of addicting for me anyway... the lyrics may be a tad simplistic but then again.. guess I followed the whole... KISS rule, this time around. Anyhoo assignments.... sleep... and.... food.... have a good one.

Sheala





Monday, November 22, 2004

Concerts from the Stairwell

I forgot to mention...
last night in the midst of many emotions running through me, kind of an overload I suppose, I found comfort in a passtime of mine; Singing in the residence stairwells. You get really nice acoustics in there, so everything you sing projects easily and sounds better. And so, at the top of the stairwell, I looked around and noticed the night sky outside the window pane. It drew me to it and I came down the stairs towards it, then I started to sing Voices from one of my favorite anime movies 'Macross Plus'. A very emotional song for me, and it brought me a sense of peace along with yet again, wistful memory.

'someone came from the dark, over from the stars
protecting my heart from crying
taken back by suprise my traveller returned
what went wrong, why did he change'

Well.. still got three fookin quizzes, on the up side giving blood is a lot more fun than you think it would be. I got asked really hilarious questions by a certified nurse, everyone was nice to me and I got to lay down and have a ten minute rest in the middle of my day. Not to mention I got TWO delicious Dad's brand Oatmeal cookies (however, they had a huge selection, so if they're not your cup of tea I'm sure there's something there you'd like) and a really delicious cup of peach juice. Then they gave me a pretty pin, and sent me on my way. It was so nice. I'm going to donate my LIFE JUICE more often.

Love goin out to all 'a my davies
'specially Eva.
To my dilly Sam,
let it be known I'm here whenever you need me.

Sheala

Secrets and Tears

"She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down"
-
Crazy for this girl

I wrote a new song yesterday, and if you're really nice to me I just might share it with you.
Hehe... today is a new day, *thank God*, cause last night was like an emotional rollercoaster. So Fooked. No work done, all weekend, once again... but at least it was a vacation.

By the way... OBSCENE PHONE CALLS SUCK. Whoever called me and did that... jeezus. People are messssed up.

Oh and I got some serious teaching experience on Saturday, and it was so fun... I really enjoyed it. Got to write on a chalkboard, break stuff down, learn people some differentials. Really fun!

I have a mess of scrambled eggs in my brain right now so excueeze me if I'm not following a logical progression. Anyway three fookin' quizzes today, time to study study study like there's three fookin' quizzes.

Wish you all the best

Sheala

Friday, November 19, 2004

As night bleeds into day...

Oh boy...
another Friday + another Physics Assignment --> another sleepless night. Tee hee...!
High stress situation the last hour before class... otherwise not soo bad.
Just dropping by in class since it's impossible to concentrate after doing so much work! AHH!!!

So lets try to forget all the crap we learned by remembering television...

Remember the Suntots... always gettin there everlovin coral and the Smoggies thinking it's the secret of youth. Always tryin to mess with the Suntots... *sigh* classic times. I have no idea how they all had the same hairstyle though, it was almost troll like but more fro ish...

Then there are the carebears, saw all the movies, know all the shows by heart. I'm not quite sure if Care bears can marry their Care Bear cousins or if it's a 'faux pas' in Caralot. Not to mention beastly and if he's somehow related to the care bears.. cause deep down he's got a soft spot, maybe he's the black sheep of the bear family... hmm.... and it was all about Granny bear man, she was the bomb, i want some of those cookies she's always baking right now...

there was dragon ball... so classic. at least the original dragon ball was fun and exciting and it was cool and they aired it on YTV during the day. But I remember when Dragon Ball Z was a treat cause they wern't airing it on daytime YTV, I had to wake up at three in the morning and sneak into my moms room to watch it (i put the volume on reallly low). And now when I watch it.. it's hilarious!!! So annoying.. the entire series is all about training, and powerlevel. ie. oh my God.. his power level is increasing enormously!! I think i'll stand here and stare for the next three episodes!

Ahh.. I feel better now, maybe more reminicing after exams.

Good Night and Wicked Friday to you all my fellow Canadians.

Sheala



Thursday, November 18, 2004

The Piano has been Drinking...

Ahh Tom Waits lyrics always get the creative juices flowing.
Just dropping in to give everyone an update. I'm feeling so unusual today, opposite myself really... like I'm living in bizarro world where everything I thought I wanted I don't really want... very unusual.

The laptop needs a shower, and the picture frame is giving me the eye
the blinds dance in the moonlight, but nothing beats the wall mounted fly...
rrrrremix!

Well.. I guess I'll leave you all with a real poem.

a sea of paper.
that's me... my life now.
crushed beneath it's weight
even more suffocating
knowing that's all there is

the piano slices me with
each stroke of a key
as the breeze reaches out
and holds me with a chill

the pains almost welcome
with the comfort of the cold
lulling out the tears
until I've no more

the notes are bright
but i'm taken over
in a wave of meloncholy memory...

Well... goodnight everyone. Enjoy the weekend. Find the time for your loved ones... they're so important, and you never know when you'll be without them. Health be with you all.

Sheala.







Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Cinnamon Toast Crunch.. and other wacky dreams.

Oh my darling.. oh my darling.. oh my darling terpentine...
first i lost you, then i drank you... now i'm not feelin' so fine...

hehe.. this describes the mood surrounding the day of diffy q's.. oh yes another day another assignment. Meaning.. more impossible question fun, and yet.. more crazy fun!!
Good parts of today...
  • woke up at ten,
  • had a williams frappe,
  • got to see many good friends.
Bad parts of today...
  • woke up from a terrible dream
  • Did assignment.. eighty percent of the time.
  • went relatively crazy
  • stressish situation
  • had many unsolvable questions
  • had to cover for person who didn't do questions properly... which isn't bad but notice on that would have been better....

Now.. about that dream. I mean.. when i say terrible i mean terrible. It had such a cold, cold feeling about it... like I wasn't going to wake up and be trapped there... I was trying to figure out where my friends went, because many of them we're missing. Somehow I wound up at a convenience store and was bothering the clerk as to their whereabouts, I bought a box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch.. and it was filled with cheezies and doritoes... messed up. She informed me that they had been.. killed in the freezer section. WHAT!!>?!?! I went digging though it and relived the gruesome deaths of my friends CSI style... but the weird part was they we're eaten by sharks or something... while swimming in the bottom part of the freezer. Like they we're tiny... then to my SUPRIZE... the dude who killed them walks in with Steve.. Steve looked much paler than usual and I snuck around the side of the store.. grabbed Steve and ran to my CAR.. yes.. I had a car... and we B Lined it outta there.. ASAP!!! Then.. I realized there was nowhere to go cause I couldn't go home, he was following us... so brilliant me...decides to try to hide in the forest.. which was covered in snow... but he's on our tail.. so close, so much adreneline pumping through my body. I was scared shitless.. there was nowhere to hide. I dont know how it ended.. I'm pretty sure I woke up with the whole.. running adreneline still pumping strong, so I don't think he caught us but it was still.. AHH!!

Otherwise... I hereby renounce the whole 'I hate math' thing I said today.. was totally frustrated.. didn't mean it. And I wish everyone luck on all these exams/assignments/stresses that seem to keep.. piling up..

Lotsa Love

Sheala

ps. you know you're under too much stress when...

  • you color your hair.. but ,sadly, it's not visible.. and yet you grab a mirror, stick your head under every light in the room and rant.. 'it shines in the liggght!!!'... hehehe...
  • when someone scares you and you jump out of your skin and start swearing... then blatently deny it later on when questioned on how much you were scared
  • when you start ranting about how much you 'hate math' when you're known to your friends at the 'calc goddess'
  • you can't study for your exam.. cause you're.. 'too busy'...

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Shiny People...three for a dollar.

My wondrous friends... if you want pictures of the kickarse partay please head to www.anotheruselesswebsite.com/uyen to pick them up. They're there for the tasting!~ Also, I would like to say.. that I feel like I have a little sine function defining my moods cause its like.. GREAT... then its like.. meh.. then it's like.. PERKY.. then its like... tear... lol.. so watch out, never know when the amplitude of that curve will change.. Hmm.. what else. Ben Harper.. interesting song writer, and all around satisfying sound... he gets recomendation from me especially the song When She Believes. Its funny how old memories can make you sad, and yet... all memories are old memories therefore reliving any of them can make me sad but it doesn't make sense if they are happy memories, its an overall wistful vibe.

Shealafying,

Sheala.

Monday, November 08, 2004

How do you spell last night? P-A-R-T-Y!

Yo.. best...party...ever...!!!
Best.. guest...list...ever...!!!
Best...entertainment...ever...!!!
Most...exclamation points...ever!!!

Top Thirty Wickedly Awesome Events:

  1. Mom and Steve drinking together... they did SHOTS!!! *without me... :'(
  2. Patrick came by with sticks to beat people with... !!! BEST PRESENT EVER!
  3. Having a mountain of glowsticks... and having to crack them alllll!
  4. Jeffs roommate being Mike's best friend from Port Elgin..
  5. Cheatta & Richard... the gift... the wrapping... the card... PRICELESS!!!
  6. Birthday Cake is for sissies... we had birthday SHOTS!!!
  7. First tequila shot...ever!!! *Thanks Cheatta...
  8. First chocolate martini...ever!!! *Thanks Jeremy...
  9. Having a Video of most of the stuff that happened.... EVEN BETTER!!! Sam is the MAN~!!
  10. Richard... BIGGEST BURP from him...EVER!!!
  11. So.. much.. pool gaming...
  12. So..much...butt grabbing!!! YEEE HAW
  13. Wicked... group SHOT of all the buddies, together at last.
  14. Jesus Belt... glows with magical Jesus Power!! RICKARD...
  15. Soo... much... chocolate... thaaanks Matty!! *drool*...*MUNCH!!*
  16. Card tricks.... just... unbelievable..!!
  17. Magician/Hypnotist picking on Cheatta.. and calling him Chedder... :p
  18. My... 'relaxed' and yet.. not hypnotized stage presence...
  19. Entertainment for the evening... Patrick and Wes... hypnotized multitalented superstar entertainers.
  20. Patrick: Soo.. good... Michael Jackson..., sadly.. his parrot was killed, watched porno for the enjoyment of all of us..!! lost penis somewhere between stage and washroom, best..ever... luke skywalker!!! Captain of Space Shuttle going to mars... (wicked dialect by the way), proposed to Wes... *I love you, would you... do me the honour... *, smelt rankness and goodness on either side of him.. forgot the number seven,
  21. Wes: deepest fantasy: cowboy...deepest sexual fantasy: on a pool table.. but with only one girl... said he'd use the pool pockets for LEVERAGE!!!! Backflippin Darth Vader!! Hilariously steriotypical britney spears... *oops i did it again... i took off my clothese, i'm a big whore*... and in a whispy voice proclaimed *don't laugh, I have feelings too...*. Won the 'chair straightening' olympics.. recieved a million dollar cheque and gave it back cause he 'does it for the sport'.. awww!! Had two.. insanely long penises and was running out of places to wrap them around. Best muscleman EVER.. ripped of his shirt and picked up two chairs like dumbells to show how wickedy awesome his muscles are... lol...
  22. Hypnotist having 'private session' with Cheatta.. who... practically creamed his pants for an ice cube.. LOL... oh man... but the water in the glass tasted like piss... and then.. the necklace.. which he would have.. but give to the hypnotist every time he touches his cell phone.. and then bitch about him stealing his necklace.. *AGAIN with the NECKLACE>. what is UP with you man!!* him loving Sarina.. but she doesn't feel it back.. and then the SENSUALLY CHARGED rendition of happy birthday... he sang just for me.. lol... while he was caressing his own body.. so.. very.. wrong.. yet HILARIOUS!!!
  23. Having friends together again: Andrea, Angela (brown), Laura McVecch, Eva, Matty, Richard, Cheatta, Sarina, Patrick, Jeff,Steve, Sam and wondrous new editions.. Wes.. Jeff's Roommate, and Vicky.
  24. Having family together again: Justin and Uyen, Mamma, Gary and Laura, Wayne and Laura, Granny and Grandpa, Jeremy and Gwenyth...
  25. Seeing Carlo and James and Paula.. who ..kept.. making.. me ... drink.. with them... lol
  26. Chilling outside the bar with Matty and bunch, Matty got a pizza from pizza pizza, while he was in there cops pulled up for a slice.. and cheatta stumbled in after them.. hehehe... classic.
  27. Sammy making sure everyone is a okay... and doing shuttling back and fourth of the peoples...and the overwhelming amount of gifts... You... Da... MANNNN!
  28. Matty taking a bus loadda people home.. Thank youuu Matty!
  29. Steve and I sleeping together!!! *He was on top by the way.. LOL* (bunk beds)
  30. Wicked...Party...Afterglow.

Thanks everyone.. for comming.. for the memories... for the fun.. for the gifts.. for the laughs...

Peace Out

Sheala

ps. vomit in RAAAAAGEEE!! ;)


Friday, November 05, 2004

Yesterday

Ahh yesterday, all my troubles hidden far away...
sadly repression can't take them away.
as I'm reliving.. yesterday.

Beatles Remix?!

Anyhoo... I'm feeling odd these days, what I want is becomming blurrier by the day. I'm considering switching out of Nuclear, just because the intro to Nuke is killing me.. day to day.. The course leaves me passionless for the field, and it leaves me leaning towards the environmental aspects of engineering... or energy systems. But, of course, I'm waffling on this issue.. I really want to find a way to make a difference with respect to the growing population and the need for clean energy if we plan on sustaining some semblance of the life we are leading. MARF!!! these things.. get me.. confused.

I don't want to help make MORE things.. for there's more crap in this earth than anyone could ever need, I've seen bagel slicers, banana hammocs, freaking... piles and piles of clothes, beautiful ariable land turned into housing devolopments, dog clothes!! I mean.. common.. they've got fur already! Then there's purses.. i mean HOW MANY PURSES CAN ONE PERSON HAVE, and yet they keep making them, I mean at the rate they're being made, i'd say every lady has gotta have about twenty purses saved up, and might buy them at a rate of one a year. *sigh*...You know how long i've gotten by without one, for about... twenty years, but then someone went and bought me one.. lol.. now i am doomed. We're insane... just flipping nuts. So much expendible income and so many people looking to profit on it. Even the music industry.. don't get me STARTED there.... thank goodness for the populaity of the internet and file sharing, it's going to make it easier for unknown talents to get recognized, but GEEZ MTV.. pumping out kiddies singing, I mean its like the younger the better but then we make them look old, pump out the voice in a recording studio, hock the wares, the video, the single, the greatest hits album, the hair care products, the socks, the back packs, the toilet paper.. geez louise. I mean all before they're nineteen... heh.. maybe i'm pissed cause I'm jealous, I'll admit that. I mean how great would it be to be able to share your soul with everyone... the 'pieces of me' as the lovely and lipsynching 'Ashlee Simpson' would put it. To be able to give something to the world.. and for the world to graciously accept, it would be the most overwhelming feeling of acceptance and fufillment. Then again there's always someone who wants to critisize you, like some hothead with a laptop and a Blog just waiting to rant on your every flaw, character, vocal or otherwise ;) . I'm sure that would start driving me crazy after a while especially if I started posting critisisms... can you just see that...
*doo doo lee doop*
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Sheala's Stragedy:
post:
* Sheala has NO TALENT man she's a hack a HACK i say.. total sellout...
geez... she needs to get a head transplant cause purple hair is SO two weeks ago
and who does she THINK she IS wearing Socks and sandals together
not to mention her inability to write or sing a descent song, even Britney is better than her!
(lol.. then this is the point where I'd start crying and kicking my own ass...)
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Tee hee.. that was fun, what else.. Running on.. ENERGY. For once I didn't have a big huge nuke assignment due today. And TOMORROW my friends is the party of a lifetime, I welcome you all to it. Best KICKEN arse place around, gonna be hypnotyzing and magifying and everything.. CARAZAY. Starts at eight gimme a call before seven if you wanna come or msn me. ALLRIGHT!!!

Sheala..

*unofficially dancing with the idea of being totally addicted to online rpg gaming*
ps. this post was dedicated to my good friend and roommate Eva.. Eva.. you're the best darn roommate a lass like me could ask for. You work so hard and I'm freakin well proud of you!


Monday, November 01, 2004

Halloween in the Tdot.

Well... first off I'd like to wish Matty Chan a happy birthday..!!! Now that we know everyone's getting older, there's something else to address. Toronto on Halloween is CRAZY... lol.. the streets are full and yet we still have troubles finding our way around... *sigh* hehe it was so fun even though we got lost! On our escapades we saw the following costumes:
  • a washer and dryer
  • a scarecrow
  • a sexy nurse
  • a sexy devil
  • a sexy angel
  • a sexy everything else
  • hookers? not sure if it was a costume...
  • a couple who had been in some kind of accident.. she had a shoe comming out of her chest with blood all around it.. insane.
  • OJ... lol.. all it was was this guy who came up to us and said.. 'i didn't do it' we figured it out eventually.
  • an army of spidermen
  • a cow
  • Jesus
  • Osama Bin Laden
  • A girl spongebob..
However... that still can't beat my cousins girlfriends costume. Last year she was a trucker.. who wore the hat, padded the belly, blacked out the teeth, had the stubble, and drew on a tattoo (truckin' and f@&#in') I couldn't even tell it was her in the pictures... ehehe..

Happy Hallows Everyone...

The holiday recommended by 99 out of 100 dentists...
*greedy greedy*

Sheala