Attack.. of the killer MUFFINS!

I know you've all been waiting.. for the 'Official' release of the Banana Waller Muffins Logo...look out for our stationary, sun tan lotion, cold cuts, leather jackets, and actual waller muffins soon to be released at Timmys.

Single Tired Female looking for a Large Soft Bed to spend long evenings with.

*Sigh* one assignment after another and one sleepless night after the next. These days are more like dreams, where I just float through. Not a good place to be, I might add. It's made me realize that not all problems can be solved through endless procrastonation. Plus.. tomorrow is dead due to the whole.. Nuclear physics assignment. Fun stuff!! :D Hehe... really it's not so bad, I just wanna get some occasional sleep. I will just try to remember the fun times, when we had time... thanks for the fine batch of Banana Waller Muffins...

a poem in memory of job.

he was job
and he still is
though he's gone
filangies flim

flams is shams
and spam arn't ham
following hearts,
exotic lands

damies cry
john ,of voids, smith
masks float to tears
filling the width

he is job
employed or not
left he may be
but not forgot.

Tea and Fresh Squeezed Orange Juice?

Today is Tuesday, I hope you have your shoes on! (For those of you who watched YTV with PJ's Todd and Jenn) Yeah man, never thought I'd spend the whole day in the library (WORKING!). This is insanity, but I'm not even done yet! I shouldn't be here, typing and griping to you folks, I should be working and researching and finding the main sourse of the 'problem' which I am to solve for tomorrow. But that's nooo fun. And so, I'm here.

I'm still here.
and so I wait
until the day
you'll take the bait

I didn't catch you
nor did I see
the gaping void
thats beneath me

for now I fall
from my own grace
into the pavement
flat on my face

then you walk by
and all you say
is...
MEEP MEEP!
then run away.

but I'm.. still.. here...

-the Ballad of While E. Coyote

Back to work I guess I've had my quotient of Warner Brothers fun... anyhoo, cole me down on the pannystye. Toots.

Banana Waller Muffins

Ahh.. the atrium a place of rejoicing and communion between the students. Along with a last minute pit of stress and cramming before exams. Oh man, speaking of which, they start next week. Fluid Dynamics, notorious for never giving assignments causing me no reason to know anything of this course or it's mysterious ways, is comming up next Friday. Hehe.. the Differential Equations tutorial caused my calculus knowledge to increase at a rate of -1 concepts/min, the textbook is even worse. Thank goodness for structures: straight forward textbook along with good ole boring lectures (reminicant of Engineering Graphics without all the work). I'm in a pretty high mood today, very happy about being alive. It's one of those days, where you do something nice for someone and they acknowledge it in a grateful way and that in turn, starts this whole chain of 'feel good' reactions. I LOVE those kinds of days! It makes me feel like I'm in an old navy commercial... or like I should just get up and start singing Broadway style, but everyone would actually join in this time! Plus, whenever I can make someone laugh, or smile that always makes my day brighter, it's only five o'clock and already my spectrometer is off the charts. I'm having an ultraviolet day my damies. Oh, and just a little tidbit, but all my engineering friends, if ever you have to cook (God forbid!) here's a site that may correspond to your thought patterns: www.cookingforengineers.com
Anyhoo... maybe I ought to pay attention to this Diffusion related classy here, this is a pretty expensive edumacation I should be absorbing. I wish you all serious good day vibes... and I will send them out to you, via my psychic powers. "Go VIBES!" May no crunsty shunts turn your smile upside down!

Tears over Gorgonzola

Today, the cousins left and I wound up watching some movie called 'The Laws of Attraction'... I wouldn't recommend it. Unless you're into college students, scantily (if that's how you spell it) clad women, sex and drugs... Really, the characters are seeking something better, or at least I hope they are. Afterwords it just reminded me of love... you know, what is it? The intangable concept so hard to grasp when you feel frozen inside. I mean... it got me reading over some old emails... ones I couldn't delete cause they had sentimental value. I was just reading them and.. they moved me to tears. Just the feeling I got remembering times in my life when I felt so loved and so in love. It's really hard to make a comparison to the way I feel now. It's like a gap, or a bus stop... I feel like I'm waiting outside in the storm for something to happen. I was even reading over old friends emails, ones I seem to have lost along the way. It made me remember what it was l ike to have really good friends you know... someone who would let you borrow their toothbrush if you needed to. That's hardcore. People who really get you, and your quirks and the memories you share. It makes me wonder if the best time in my life has passed, and the only place I'm going is downward. I see people I thought I knew, and feel helpless because I know bad things have happened but I can't do anything. I know they don't want my help. It's a path of self destruction I'm following, and I watch others along the same path. More far gone than I... and I want to pull them back, to help them. But I have nothing to grab onto for leverage. And, I don't want to hurt the people who love me because, they do mean so much to me especially at these times when I'm not on solid ground. It's times like these that make me wonder if I will ever become whatever the hell I'm meant to become. Dammit all.. everything was fine 'till I went and watched Jason Van Der Beek in that weird ass movie. Thinking sucks. I'll take it as an awakening, and pull an Eva this year and live as the hermits do, locked in the room with the homework. Speaking of which... D.E. awaits.

Changing Lanes

Alllright! We all are alive after another round of Sheala vs. Everyone else on the road. Huzzah! Yes, as the title does imply I changed lanes.. and not just any old lanes but lanes on Steeles av. along with the dreaded Hiway 7. This puts me in a pretty excellent mood, plus.. there's a family par-tay tonight with the uncles, the aunts, the grandparents and of course the cousins. Now, I gotta put this question out there... a cousin who will remain nameless (she's only fourteen) got so very drunk that she passed out and had no idea where she was. Now, if you were her parents... where the hell were you~!? She's fourteen!! It makes me so angry , I want to invent new swear words. Like... Muffin Shunt! or... Crunsty Plucker! Plus.. what kind of Crunsty Shunt is buying these fourteen year olds alcohol!?! Okay.. that's the end of my brief rant, if there's any other perspectives on this out there I'd love to hear them... anything to make my face stop twitching. Yeah man, but aside from that.. the day has been golden, and once I get some actual school work done, it should be even better. So I bid you adieu.. catch yas on the flip side.

Driving Vio Crazy

Yes, it's Saturday morning and once again it's time for driving with Vio. Perhaps it's because I can't understand him very well that I do so poorly, or my severely neurotic 'Sheala Sense' that I will inevitably kill someone with this car. It's a huge SUV, or as I like to call it "The Vehicle of Death noone in their right mind would drive if they lived in the city". So, wish me luck at keeping a very loose grip on the wheel like Vio tells me... though I worry the car will take on a mind of its own and swerve into oncomming traffic, it is THAT huge. He's going to be here soon, but I'll check in later to put your minds at ease that noone has died by my hand today, and well just be careful out there on the roads between 12:00 and 1:30pm. ;) Tootlies.

Friday Night Thought Bite

Well, for one reason or another thought I'd jump on the Blog wagon. Might as well since I already keep a diary and this is actually easier to edit since it can be accessed from any internet site. Especially since I'm going to a brand new 'high tech' university. This past week has been a blur, but then again such is my life. In the moment, its a vibrant painting.. but then its gone and my memory spins everything together into a confused melding of color, laughter and inner dialogue. The only thing I really remember is how to take a derivative, and frankly, that's pretty sad. Then again it's also standard for an engineer in training. Speaking of which, I feel like I'm sliding behind the constantly growing pile of work that needs to be done, but in second year it's not assignment after assignment.. you have to do the readings on your own for the sake of doing them, along with the questions. Which makes the work a little more independant and easy to skip. Curse you fun, distracting me from this incredibly expensive education. On the bright side, I've met quite a few more people this year as opposed to last year and it's been a whole lot more enjoyable. Although, I need to stop wasting time and start being a 'highly effective person' as Dr. Waller would put it. Only need to implement the seven habits, *sigh* if only I were effective enough to remember what they are. At least my mom is doing better than before, we had a blast today in residence talking with a bunch of my buddies outside. She was handing out gifts like Santa Clause or something, hehe, then I got the royal treatment when Cory and Tyler gave me a piggy back ride. Tee Hee... walking is for suckers! Although, I'd have to say the best room to visit is Kevin and Sams room, its like I'm a princess there...between the soup, the stir fry, and the organic skim milk.. along with all the arts and crafts with 'unusual sticky white substances'?!? Plus Kev is always watching really wicked educational and yet dramatic TV. Well anyhoo, its getting sleepy in here... I'd better make a break for it, on this.. predictably unproductive, yet enjoyable, Friday night.